Marriage is fun they said, marriage is complete bliss they said.
What they don't say, is that its life changing and challenging, every single day.
But i wouldn't have it any other way.
Man, have we been busy, and I'm sorry i haven't wrote much. Every day i tell myself to sit down and write out my feelings. But sometimes life has other plans.
Our lives have been ever changing since the day we said "i do"
Trips to the social security office..early morning lines at the DPS getting my name changed.
Its all so new and exciting. Mostly when i get to hear my husband call me "wife"
Gives me butterflies.
Most importantly, marriage is work. And its the best work you will ever do, and every single day the work you put it, turns around and gratifies you. Its a type of work that at the end of everything, it is the most rewarding. Mostly if you're doing it with God in the center.
Here i am, 11 at night, writing this to you, while my precious husband is working at his new job. Too many nights are spent this way. I constantly have people asking me how we deal with his new job/schedule. I usually tell them how hard it is (because it is extremely hard not seeing my new husband, as a newlywed) I always say that its a struggle.
Its not a struggle.
Its our life. Its what we are doing. Its what God has placed in front of us. Of course its a struggle, most things in life are just that. But its what you do with those hardships that make a person. God wants us to be living this life right now. Why? I don't know. We will let that beautiful story unfold itself in time.
I was at the store this evening, by myself, getting things ready for our birthday cookout for my husband tomorrow and i saw an employee who had some disabilities. And he was smiling. Smiling. And living his life. I wanted to cry. And just fall on the floor right there in Walmart. I immediately thought of the work Tim and Rebecca are doing at Orphan Relief and Rescue. This week they saved hundreds of kids from child trafficking in Africa. And here i am worrying about spending extra money on organic things. When there are people out there who are just so lucky to be alive.
Sometimes i think God put people like that employee on this earth to remind the people who aren't sick, to be grateful that no matter what the situation you're in, turn it into something positive. God did not promise us all happy days and sunshine. But he did promise us his grace.
So while I'm sitting in my air conditioned apartment, while my husband is working for us until 4am, i won't complain that we rarely see each other. Ill be on my knees thanking God that we HAVE each other. And we have life.
So, marriage. Its the best thing that has ever happened to me. I look forward to all the beautiful memories that lay before me and Colby. These may be trying times, but i wouldn't want to do it with any one else. Its just life, right?
